LOST...

Lost in the array of thoughts

Befuddled

I often find myself alone amongst myriad of people

Even though I trust them more than i trust myself

I have always followed their norms and walked the paths paved by them

Only to realize this was not what i want

Now i find myself in the middle of nowhere,

Lost in the array of thoughts

Befuddled

Every time i stand in front of  mirror

My reflection scoffs at me

It challenges me, to be me

I am tired of sneaking from my own reflection

I am done being hesitant

For once I want to break this wall of unattainable

For once I want to experience the ultimate triumph

For once I want to exhibit my existence to them

For once I want to stare in the eye of my reflection

I don't want to be lost in the array of thoughts anymore

For I am done being undetermined

lets have some fun!!!

I found this very interesting game invented by Coveted Dreams called Word-O-Logy Wednesday
 a word association game, where in you associate a particular word with first phrase/word that comes to your mind... i know... awesome right!!!

God:Peace
India:My Country
Maths: Sucks
Wedding:Rollar Coaster
Road Trip:Fascinating
Women:Multi-tasking          
Black: Beautiful
Blogging:Stimulating
Shopping:Unquenchable
Dreams:Perpetual

Happy Weekend Everyone :)

BazZZzinGa Moment!!!!!

My first award!!!!!!!

Dum Daaaa Diiii Daaaa…

I almost feel like some celebrity chased by paparazzi…aaahhhhh

Or I feel like playing for the 'Koffee Hamper' on koffee with Karan  ahem ahem!!!!!

Before I'm lost in my dream world,

Let me  thank Ani from  Absolutely Not Sure ! who nominated mindBLOWING for this award, 

1. What makes you blog?

I scribble a lot.. last pages of my notebooks are always filled with some random words, my name, songs, poems etc,

Now that I have all the time in the world for myself, blogging has become most ideal thing to do

2. Which part of your life inspires you the most?

    My Mother..she is and always be an integral part of my life.

3. Who is your fav author
     Dan Brown, Paulo Coehlo, Stephen Covey, Ashwin Sanghi, and the list goes on...

4 Which day is most memorable for you?

   Ahhh there are so many, but a day spent exactly according to me is memorable for me.

5.Which song best describes you?

   I guess i have a song for every phase of my life, but yes i often listen to the title song form movie     Rangeela and can totally relate to it.

6. If given which would be your last wish

   To be recognized (in a good way) by people other than my family and relatives.

7. What makes you feel blessed?
    My family.

8. Beaches or Mountains?
    I love both but as we have been to beach recently i would say mountains,

    M i hope you are reading this one :P

9. Your fav item in closet?
    Right now, its my new Black Blazer.

    

10. Your Most desired b'day gift?

      A looong vacation with my family.

11.How much you loved this award?

     I'm so much in love with my award... ohhh its been 3days now and i'm like
     i got an award yessss i got an award yuhuuuuuu,
     ahem ahem well, i better stop now  :P :P

 11 random facts about me... 

1. I’m momma’s girl.. 

2. I like to dream, irrespective of day or night,

3.  A movie freak, I just cant afford to miss any trailer though, would rather miss a movie, duhhhh

4.  I like reading/watching Indian Mythology, Mahabharata being my all time fav epic

5. I like to engage myself in any kind of craft work

6.  A TV addict, i can watch anything and everything on TV all day long,

   ( mostly advertisements chat shows, interviews, behind the scenes, making of a song/movie etc)

7. I hate Maths

8. I love to workout, I love my gym,

9. An introvert, and a confused soul

10. Ardent Shah-Rukh-Khan fan 

11. A morning person, I start off like a robot, and by the end of the day i act like 90 year old… duhhh!!!

As per rules i have to nominate (new) blogs/bloggers for the same award who in turn have to answer the same questions 

My Nominations are :) :)

Savera

ANUNAD

Congratulations Guys!!!!!

critical ACCLAIM!!!

I’ve been so lazy lately and  one thing i hate about being lazy is that it makes me skip my workout, it feels good for a while(30 mins or so) but then i start feeling guilty and end up cursing myself

Nevertheless, i’ve finally managed to overcome this by joining a GYM 

(as i had mentioned in one of my post few days back that we have a huge gym right across the road)

 I’m going through all these tests, metabolic rate, heart rate, calorie count and what not..some are familiar but some stuff sounds foreign to me, i’m super excited as far as it concerns me,  i know right  :P and if everything works out according to the ‘plan’or rather i follow the plan i’ll get to see the lean new me..hummmm

 how and when i got addicted to  things like fitness, workout..humm that's a different story or post altogether :D

Anyways, who says only celebrities/stars have to deal with the critics

I think everyone of us has critics in one or the other form surrounding us

When was the last time you were criticized by your friend, relative or irritating neighboring aunties

I don’t know about others but i was, time and again i was criticized for what i wore, for being chubby and for numerous other things, 

Now when i look back at life i thank each and every person who bestowed me with all those unasked opinions and judgement.

People you showed me the way to a better, fitter me,

I think I’m my biggest critic now, and as far as critical acclaim is concerned

I still have a long way to go…

keep burning!!!!!!

Road Trip 1

Though this was not our first road trip, for some strange reason i wrote 1 up there

road trips are always fun, and this was my 3^rd (US) road trip and i have lost the count if i consider (Indian) road trips

Also I have read & heard so much about fall foliage over the years, finally got to experience and capture fall closely.

Trees covered with the shades of bright yellow and vibrant red, resembling some sort of painting

I was completely mesmerized by the fall colors...

We started off early in the morning, foggy breezy morning, morning longing for a cup of coffee…

with the melody of an ipod and prominent voice of GPS we commenced our journey

Roads… aren’t they mystical.. changing demeanor every now and then,

In morning they seem to be calm, fresh, peaceful,

evening they seem to be flirting around while night makes them bit scary...

God knows how long it might have taken to pave all these roads,

if only the road could speak i would know

how it feels to be paved for infinite years..

how it feels to witness myriad of vehicles..

how it feels to be rigid, firm and continual..

how it feels to bridge the gap

There are numerous people on road, with numerous purpose…

some relaxed, some rushing

some happy, some gloomy

The road knows it all...

If only the road could speak I would ask

How it feels to know it all...

Like every Road Trip, this one too left me pondering

this is why i love road trips, you can take time off and think about so many random things

regardless of getting answer to every question on your mind...

vision BEYOND!!!!

 Even though I chat daily with my mom through skype-my lifesaver, we find very little time for our story session, she still somehow manages to tell me one or two every single month

Her narration has such an impact on me that everytime i listen to her, i am all pumped up

She can get you out of that couch in minutes, believe me…

Literacy and Education are two different things I believe

It is not at all necessary for a person to be literate, to be able to survive in this world, 

for, how big a school or university might be

The real lessons of survival are demonstrated in the outer world

Why does a local vegetable vendor knows more about selling than that of some sales/marketing grad from a reputed institution (mostly)

maybe former will not be able to make as much money as the later

That’s where Literacy comes in picture, awareness and methodology

But, isn’t it unfair on the part of vendor, that he is deprived of better living just because he is illiterate or does not posses a piece of paper called- degree certificate

More than anyone a Man thought about this years ago

Sanjit Bunker Roy, is an Indian social activist and educator

He earned his master's degree in English. He became an Indian national Champion in Squash for three years, also representing India internationally in the sport. He then decided to devote himself to social service, to the shock of his parents. 

Bunker Roy, Born to a wealthy Indian family, received what he describes as a "very snobby, elitist, expensive education," which he believes imparts arrogance without providing the kind of practical knowledge needed in poor villages.

In 1972 he founded the Barefoot college in Tilonia, Rajasthan, India. It is a SOLAR-POWERED school that teaches illiterate men & women from impoverished Indian villages to become doctors, architects, solar engineers etc, there are now 20 such colleges in 13 sates of India

The college has adopted Gandhian  (Mahatma Gandhi's) ideas into its lifestyle and work ethics, holding its true and relevant universally even in 21st century

Barefoot Approach:

• Where the teacher is the learner and learner a teacher;
• Where everyone is expected to keep an open mind, try new and crazy ideas, make mistakes and try again
• Where even those who have no degrees are welcome to work and learn
• Where no certificates, degree or diplomas are given

Barefoot Methodology:

• Solar Energy: Placing the fabrication, installation, usage, repair and maintenance of solar lighting units in the hands of rural, illiterate and semi literate men and women

• Rain Water Harvesting: Construction of underground water tanks and small tanks, which helps to preserve ground water by creating alternative sources of water.

There are several such barefoot methodologies..... I was stunned to see their website, the amount and quality of work done by so called rural illiterate people is  exceptional. If this is what one man's idea of giving back to the society has shaped into, then such an idea is worth spreading and definitely worth an execution... I am only one, but still I am one. I cannot do everything, but still I can do something; and because I cannot do everything, I will not refuse to do something I can do. Edward Everett Hale

courtesy: wikipedia & www.barefootcollege.org

second CHANCE...

From schooling-to-college-to-job

life has been busy, preoccupied with several thoughts, diligently working towards goals, making plans some well executed some failed, some left halfway

school days were spent in an anticipation of college days while college days in an anticipation of job, not to forget all the fun.  

Everyday had something new to offer- excitement, challenges, disputes, disagreements, learning, fooling around, the ups and downs...

The phase where one looses all hopes and wants to give up so bad, 

followed by a moment of achievement, a moment of success which fades away the slightest memory of pain, those days of agony, as if they never existed.

All these years i seldom had alone time, with so much going on, I could barely make time for my activities (Gym,collectibles,scrapbooks)

Since last 8months, Life seems like a vacation, vacation with lots of responsibilities though, errrrrr

I have learned things about myself i never knew before

for the record i never knew i could cook,  

And now that i have all the time in the world, I workout, I write yeayyy, I sleep…

But there are times when i get depressed, as i want this vacation to end sometime soon now,

I am waiting for my second chance

Second chance to study, Second chance to work, Second chance to learn new things, Second chance to grow...

I am edgy, I am confident

I am anxious, I am patient

I am hopeful, I am wretched

Are there any more adjectives to describe my emotions, I guess no…

Waiting spans are so excruciating, we don’t know what’s on the other Ughhhhhh

If its good I want this time to end right now and if its bad I want this span to continue…

Am I suffering from the Grass-Is-Greener-On-Other-Side-Syndrome :O :O