Reflected-Realization!!!!!

This post is a part of WOW(Write Over The Weekend) an initiative for Indian Bloggers By Blogadda

I woke up, went to the bathroom and saw myself in the mirror....
It did't came as a shock to me, yes its me, may be with some more visible lines but still,  its me.
Ignoring mirror has become a chore for me,
and anyways, entrapped in the daily humdrum of life who has the time to have a conversation with thyself, gone are those days when life was all about me, the way i look, the way i laugh....

I think Mirrors can be the most dreadful object sometimes
They are not mere reflection of me, I feel as if they can see through me
You have known me since past 20years
You were with me each time i cried,
Each time i pretended to be someone else,
I did all those dance and drama in front of you,
How could i forget the day I locked myself inside bathroom and you calmed me down
How could i forget the day I confessed that I was in Love,
I have always shared my secrets with you,
I don't remember exactly when i stopped talking with you
One thing is sure Life comes with situations and i accept i was not able to deal with them the way i wanted to and ended up acting like a coward
Its you who made me realize
The only person standing between me and my desired life is ME

'Its not what happens to Us, but our RESPONSE to what happens to Us'

Home ALONE :) :)

 6th day of 2013 is almost here
 And past 5days were spend wishing every single person Happy 2013, making resolution, setting goals
Hmmmm so now its time to actually get on with Life
SIGH SIGH
In the mean time M had to go out of town for a conference,
I had to stay back, this is probably first time (post marriage) that I'm all alone
I reminiscence those days when i would look forward to occasions like this,  i mean it was like a golden opportunity to be alone at Home.
My Mother being a Home-Maker has always been watchful,  Me and my sister were rarely left alone

I remember doing all the crazy things,
wearing my mother's sarees
dancing to all raunchy item numbers/songs doing all those obscene movements
ahem ahem you know what i'm talking about right
barge into the refrigerator to have all those ice-cream and chocolates
spending hours and hours in front of mirror-Really
call all the friends over and have night-long girl talks.

Now a days my favorite to-do thing is to  have all kinda stuff like a remote, phone, eatables,
books, water, coffee-cup in a reachable distance so you just don't have to get up what-so-ever
I have not even bothered to open the drapes heeeeeee

Well i did a little crazy-dance yesterday for a moment i felt as if i was too old for it...
but then i realized you are never too old to do a little crazy-dance, especially when you are all alone it brings out that insanity in you... :P


I'll resume to my normal sane routine Tomorrow
till then Happy Craziness to Me!!!!!!

AVERAGE....

For some average is the state of mind

For some it is the way of life

For me it is a shackle

Shackle hard enough to break-free from

Excellence is a mirage

Is what i've always thought

Success above certain level is unattainable

Is what i’ve always believed

Average is the life I have always lived

Dependency leads to delusion

Comfort makes you indolent

Settling down for good over great

is nowhere close to an achievement

I have knowingly ignored all these facts

Average is the life I have always lived

With an impending New Year

My Resolution is... 

To put an end to my Doubtfulness...

To put an end to an Average Life....

To break the shackles of Mediocrity...

Wishing All my dear Friends A Very Happy and Bright 2013!!!!!

I_Me_Marraige- Not Afraid to Love....

I_Me_Marraige-Still Afraid To Love...

Jan 2011

Still confused…          

My mind's very own territory -Confused-State-Of–Mind

Year 2011 has begun but in an unusual manner....

Suddenly, butterflies in stomach, being alone, listening to old romantic songs

Gazing at sky, long talks on phone, red roses, cute gifts, holding hands and every possible cheesy thing has started making sense to me....

But i’m still waiting for an affirmation from my mind and we decided to wait, to wait for one long year in order to test ourselves, test our love for each other…

Its been 6months now, Milind is not here but

I can still feel his presence….

I still wait for his call every morning…

I still have goose-bumps when his voice falls in my ears,

I still remember that evening how tears rolled down my cheeks when he was leaving….

I cant wait to see him again….

Sometimes a moment in your life makes you take life-time decisions, 

I now knew that this is my crucial moment that I'm not afraid to LOVE anymore.....

                                                 

                                                                                

Dec 2012

If life is a journey then I would say I’ve just embarked on mine,

days-months and a Year

Year of Togetherness,

Year of Happiness,

A Year full of Surprises,

A Year of Knowing and Understanding each other

A Year of few Arguments

A Year of few Alterations

I wish to spent such countless years with You…

Happy Anniversary to US!!!!!!

I_Me_Marriage -Still afraid to LOVE

I_Me_Marraige- Afraidd to Love...

Nov 2010-8 A.M

I am already late for office…i have to deliver a report today…i don’t know what Preeti(my manager) is going to say…

Suddenly my phone rings and as always i cannot find it..

Ohhh god what if its Preeti??? its not mummy for sure, she never calls me this time…

Ohhh here it is.. what?? not again… Mr America calling

I am on talking terms with this guy, he sure doesn’t sound like a Typical-Indian-Boy-Searching-For-Bride, He is much cooler...

funny thing is i haven’t even seen his picture yet…

Me:   Hello

Him: Hey hi, how are you

Me:   Ohhh I’m good

Him: I know you must be getting ready for office and I’m disturbing you but

         I’ve figured out an amazing fact about us

Me:  What fact??

Him: You know what, We share our birthdays, the moment i came to know i couldn't stop myself  from 

          calling you

Me:   Really????? What a Coincidence…

Same day 12 PM

 Is it for real??? This is strange, Is this some kinda Signal???

'Dil to pagal hai'- kinda signal

(now you know where do all this Bollywoodish thoughts come from.. duhhhh)

Dec 2010

I cant believe i’m sitting right in front of him, having 'so-called' dinner

There have been various awkward moments in my life but this one tops the list :D

I have so many question in my mind, should i ask him or should i wait for the food…arghhhhh..

Giving unfamiliar smiles is so stupid sometimes....

I better speak…

After a long session of a dumb-relevant-some-irrelevant questions

For the first time in my i was getting an answer

No matter how dumb or irrelevant my question was, i had an answer…

Part of me is still hesitant, what if this is an infatuation????

To be Continued....

I_ME_Marraige - Afraid to LOVE...

flash-back - August 2010

Hmmmm what a hectic day…but deep down i’m satisfied after all, this is what i’ve been yearning for-  

my identity, my independence, my work..

i know its going to be tough for a girl like me, i might feel homesick, i have never been away from mummy and purva(sister) my entire life..still somewhere i am excited and looking forward to my new life in city of my dreams MUMBAI...

Some strange sound woke me up, it took me a while to realize that i’m not in my old room,  that its 7-30 am and i got to rush, this has happened several times with me i often talk to my self and while doing so unknowingly fall asleep…

Well its going to be a big day today, my first ever meeting yuhuuuu..

       Days are passing by swiftly, i have been to my home town few days ago and i’ve already started missing home..

Home visits are directly proportional to a word called MARRIAGE, but this time it  was different more serious than ever

It feels like some new chapter has begun in my life, Chapter Of Marriage, i knew this would be coming but not so early....

I’m not sure not that i’ve never thought about it, but still this is not the right time i don’t want my career and marriage to collide

Like every other normal girl i've always had this rough idea of what kind of guy i would like to be with, but unlike every other normal girl my idea would change every week or day to say so, i might sound weird but from school to college to work i've met so many people some have impressed me, some were friendly, while some were desirous...

How on earth can one figure out given so many options.....
Unending Infatuations and Countless Crush!!!!!

Even if my 'Would-Be' crosses paths with me how am i going to know that he is the one

with thousands of questions on my mind i closed my eyes, in an anticipation of better tomorrow

To Be Continued.....

my HEART & MIND!!!!

I have known them since ages
I have shared my times with them
They are part of me
Still so obscure
Still so strange
My Heart & Mind are hard to comprehend

I am no stranger to them
but every-time i converse with them
they seem so atypical and mysterious
My Heat & Mind always surprise me

Every-time i try to find  answers
they both have their own suggestions
Suggestions which are exactly opposite
Solutions which are equally viable
To settle with one of them seems like an unending procedure
My Heart & Mind always leave me pondering


I have been listening so much about decision making
I have always been taught to be logical
I have always been suggested to be practical
I find it very difficult to be so
Although i'm not proposing to be unrealistic either
I dont know how to get there
I have never know....
Over the years i have realized
there are very few moments when heart and mind go along
never let go those moments
for my Heart & Mind seldom concurs!!!!