Expect The Unexpected!!!!!!!!!

Remember that feeling when we think tomorrow is a working day and it happens to be a Sunday,

that smile on our face is so genuine and wholehearted.

That amazement when we are humming some song and out of the blue that same song is on air,

when we are thinking about someone and suddenly that person calls us,

Such sweet coincidences, such unexpected gestures are precious. 

No matter how petty these reflexes are, no matter how trivial they are 

they take away all the negativity, the uncertainty, the adversity which surrounds us all the time with them,

and makes us happy despite of everything

Expectation hurts??? 

depends on what we are expecting....

Expect  hearing from a long lost school friend 

Expect a surprise gift 

Expect a romantic candle light dinner

Expect nice bright morning

Expect that today is the Best Day

Expect the Unexpected!!!!!!! 

PS: Helloo to all my blogger friends, I am back from my vacation

I missed reading your wonderful blogs, Hope that you all are doing good :) :)

Doubly HAPPY!!!!!

I am not only happy, I am Doubly Happy today, 

I had innumerable things planned for this moment, i was longing for this happiness

but now when my wait is over, i am numb, i don't know how to express my happiness

I hope by stating 'I am Happy' i am doing justice to my feelings

Next week We(yesss Me and M share our Birthday, i knowwww, rightttt) will have one more reason to celebrate along with our Birthday

I will start my Masters Program from this fall semester, got my admission confirmed today, Yessss finally the loooong wait is over and what makes this more special is i get to celebrate this with my family as i'll be visiting India after almost 2years phewwww....

If we are waiting for something, each day seems prolonged, every minute is lengthy

There is an unending war between Positive and Negative parts of our brain,

overpowering and dominating each other....

We might be physically present but mentally, we are wandering somewhere in search of answers

Poor mind is entangled in the infinite loop of 'What-If'

And one fine day Just-Like-That without any prior notification, 

One E-mail, One Letter, One Phone-call breaks this hiatus like a beam of sunlight breaks the darkness...

Isn't it amazing how few seconds of Blissfulness fades away days/months long Gloominess just like that!!!!!

Its all in the MIND!!!!!!

It is weird how this 3 pound mind controls rest of our body,
so is MIND the most important organ of our body???
when I was a kid i used to come up with this question every now and then,
what is the most-important-organ of our body, after hours of introspection i would conclude that may be Eyes are the most important organ of our body, the funny part is that this conclusion would change every week, Even today i ask this question to myself but over the years i have figured out that,
MIND may not be the most important body part but it is indeed most Powerful part of our body,
Isn't it intriguing when we crave for an ice-cream in the middle of night,
when we just have to watch a particular movie even if we have watched it so many times in the past,  when we feel like going on long drives,
when for no reason we want to call our loved ones who are far away from us,
Our body is just reacting to whatever is going on up-there
I probably realize this every Monday, when my mind resists going to gym and in that process comes up with most innovative excuses, But today I was amazed by the power of my Mind,
Where I usually exercise for 40-45 minutes, I kept on doing it for more than one hour only because my mind was engrossed in the newly installed instruments at the gym,
today my body was not fatigued, it was not waiting for the machine to show 'END OF WORKOUT'
this is such a trivial instance, but if understood and used wisely power of Mind is stupendous...
Dont you think so, have you ever experienced anything like this???

In the Midst Of....

Have you ever been in the midst of something, somewhere
Experienced the bafflement, the anxiety
As if the you are the core of an Universe
You cant hold on to anything, anyone
You cant lean on anything, anyone
Nothing else exists, But you

Have you ever been in the midst of a pitch black alley
Experienced the fear, the uncertainty
As if you are alone
You cant look behind
You don't know what's ahead
No one is nearby, But You

Have you ever been in the midst of a Journey
Experienced the endless, extended roads
As if it would never end
You cant stop in between
You just have to Go-On
No one persists, But You...


Have you ever been in the midst of a Nightmare
Experienced the trauma, the pain
As if there is no tomorrow
You cant wake up
You cant stop yourself from watching it
No one can discern it, But You...

Have you ever been in the midst of something, somewhere....

Curious???

I was eager to write with my father’s fancy pen,
To have the feel of his power and authority

I was curious to wear my mom’s dress and makeup,
to see if I look like her

I was desperate to learn how to ride a bicycle
I would fall many times, injure myself but never gave up

I was eager to finish my education
To face the world all by myself

I was ready to usher in the world of Grownups
little did i know that
Growing Up means following the rules
Growing Up means to be in a rut
Growing Up means locking the little window of innovation
Growing Up means caring more about what people think of me
Growing Up means striving for acceptance
Growing Up means forgetting the original me
Growing Up means becoming fearful
Growing Up means not trying hard enough....

I’m not saying that all adults live a mundane life but I can definitely say that children are innovative
So what makes us loose the inquisitiveness??
why do we get influenced so easily??
I don’t know, but I’ve figured out one thing-
It’s always good to embrace childhood,
It broadens my vision, keeps me in a learning mode
and most important I’m not afraid to try new things

I guess we can reduce dullness from our lives
by reliving the good old childhood days!!!!!!

And WE Fight....

Days are Longer
Nights are Sleepless
When We Fight

I am unbending
He is Stubborn
When We fight

Laughs are Missing, Hugs are vanished
Talks are Precise, Eyes hardly meet
When We Fight

I prefer Shouting and Screaming
While he is Quiet
'Men are from Mars and Women from Venus'
This is so Right!!!
Yes WE Fight....

Who says Marriage is all about Love and Endearment
One of its major ingredient is Disagreement
Only to feel the immense Love after every fight
We Fight...

I know this will be over
We will resolve things
but one fine day
We will again
FIGHT....

PS: FIGHT here refers to trivial arguments, nothing Serious :)

Daily Prayer!!!!

Call it a practice, habit, belief or ritual, I pray daily
I've grown up watching my mother pray twice(morning and evening) a day without fail
she would wake up finish off with her daily chores and ask me to pluck fresh flowers for idols in our temple, my fav part was is.. infact i have three fav parts during a POOJA(prayer)
Apply Tika to every idol, Sing Aarti(devotional song) and eat all the mouthwatering sweets once the prayer is over


I always had my reasons to pray- good grades, just to obey mom, nice job even reckless whining about something or someone,
I would wonder what is the reason behind my mother's prayer,
what does she want in life, what is she complaining about,
I often asked her  and she would say it is not always about material things,
she thanked god for whatever she has and asks for our well being and good health
I never understood this until today's prayer, when i realized that its been months or may be a year that i haven't  asked God for any material thing, no complains whatsoever.
I thank god everyday (unconsciously) for whatever i have, this truly feels Great...
Seems like now i've understood TRUE meaning of DAILY PRAYER!!!!

DREAM ON....

What are DREAMS, pleasing Dreams, scary Dreams, desirous Dreams, Dreams about Dreams..
Why do we dream?? should we Dream??
Hovered by lots of dreams and unresolved questions about dreams she would start her day,
purpose of dreaming was never clear to her, basically she loved Dreaming
It was her way to escape from never ending hustle-bustle, pervading rut around her
this may sound bit weird, but she preferred Day Dreaming, with her eyes wide open, she would be lost in a wonder world for hours and hours, no no she was not insane, she was like any other girl,
'Dreaming is utter waste of time', 'Dreamers are Non-Achievers', 'Dreaming is being hypothetical'
she would superficially listen to all these theories, in her mind she alway believed that
Dreams come true.

She had this small desire, call it a dream since childhood, she did nothing special to acquire it, though she believed it wholeheartedly, surviving numerous turmoil, fatalities that life threw at her she had only one thing to clinch on, her Dreams
After a while, she realized- Dreams do come True
Only difference between Dreamers and Achievers is BELIEF!!!!
So has she stopped Dreaming now????
Nahhhhh........
This is just a beginning

   DREAM ON......

And the Award goes To....

 Last month was all about awards be it OSCARS or Liebster...
 Speaking My heart....  nominated me for 'The Creative Blogger Award'
 also Purple Assassin nominated me for the 'Liebster Award'

Thank you Girls and thank you all for reading and appreciating mindBLOWING!!!!
Here comes the tough part, answering the questions, well i hope i do justice to your interesting questions

Following are the questions from Speaking My Heart

1. One thing you truly love about yourself

   I think i'm a good daughter, i want to be the best though :)

2.  Biggest achievement

    When I spent my first salary on buying gifts for my family, that moment is very close to my heart

3. which one is more important: Truth that hurts or Lie that retains the smile? why?

    I prefer truth that hurts, although it will hurt for a while, but in the long run Truth will persist

Click Here for the questions and answers from Purple Assassin


Best Part, My nomination for 'Creative Blogger Award'

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Love You Sister!!!!!

I was lonely, I was friendless
Till you came into my life
You were like a beam of light, fresh breeze of air
You were someone I could easily maneuver

I was unimportant, I was inconsiderable
Till you came into my life
You paid heed to my words
You were my chief supporter
You followed me all over

We argued, we quarreled
It was then I realized,
We were so unlike each other, yet hard to separate
We were so stubborn at times, but would yield to each other

We chuckled, we giggled
We shared, borrowed
Of all those days we were together
I never realized how precious our bond is
Miles apart from you
I only wish to relive every single day with You...

Love is Friendship???

I have grown-up watching movies like My Best Friend's Wedding, When Harry Met Sally, Maine Pyaar Kiya, kuch Kuch hota hai -where best friends, who have known each other for years fall in love.

No matter how much i love watching Julia Roberts fighting for her love or Monica & Chandler getting married with each other, i can never imagine this happening or at least not with me
I never knew what is Love, but i was sure that Love is not Friendship, that Love and Friendship are two different things up until i met M, i wont say that he is my best friend but yes i share almost everything with him, Does that mean Love is Friendship???
Of all the existing relations Friendship is the only relation created by us with someone like us or  someone unlike us, there is no logic, no methodology to befriend somebody, it just happens and we rarely remember the initial conversations,
Love on the other hand makes us wise and adaptable,
the only relation where one is always ready to yield, where following is more valuable than leading
where one does not undergo sufferings all alone.....
I can never resolve whether Love is Friendship, but one thing is inevitable,
Love has a trace of Friendship and Friendship has a shade of Love

I found YOU & YOU found ME

Far apart from each other
I never thought i would cross lanes with you
as they always said true love is hard to find.
I had wrapped all my fantasies to come face to face with the reality
until one fine day, When I found you and YOU found ME

I had several reasons not to love anybody
But, i had only one reason to love you
I knew this when we first met,
When I found you and YOU found ME

My knowledge is not profound enough to define LOVE
All i can say is-
Love is when
I am with YOU and YOU are with ME

Happy Valentines DAy!!!!!!!

Sh*t HAppens!!!!

Excuse me for the language ppl but can i just get it out,
Life is one bumpy ride, it comes with all sorts of uninvited twists and turns
Ask me about it- yaaahannn
well i know i'm not the only one, every one has their own customized way to bi**ch about life
and this is my way *cruel smile*
For past 3months i was longing for this day 7th feb 2013,
sitting at home, i almost cut myself from the world,  our living room is turned into my study room, with papers and books lying around, poor M does not come home for lunch anymore for my convenience, Our dinner includes two kinds of delicacies  EGGS and MAGGIE
I was all set to write a happy-happy post bragging little bit about my achievement and stuff like that *ahem ahem* and here i am boring you all with my not-so-happy-post :(
I have not been to GYM, now this is worse, i try to hide myself by 3-4 layers of clothing thanks to winters-i still look normal
My disheveled appearance is killing me, Nevertheless i am happy, this is going to end soon and i will be back to my normal clean and healthy life with lots of yummy food but NOOO.....
Good things never come easy, if they come easy they are not good enough
something similar happened with me, my most awaited moment just went by because of some technical error *BOOM*
stunned, annoyed, sad i didn't know how to react
By the end of the day i was tired of screaming and whining and had to face the reality- This will go-on for few more days.
But whats life without a little DRAMA right!!!!!

Reflected-Realization!!!!!

This post is a part of WOW(Write Over The Weekend) an initiative for Indian Bloggers By Blogadda

I woke up, went to the bathroom and saw myself in the mirror....
It did't came as a shock to me, yes its me, may be with some more visible lines but still,  its me.
Ignoring mirror has become a chore for me,
and anyways, entrapped in the daily humdrum of life who has the time to have a conversation with thyself, gone are those days when life was all about me, the way i look, the way i laugh....

I think Mirrors can be the most dreadful object sometimes
They are not mere reflection of me, I feel as if they can see through me
You have known me since past 20years
You were with me each time i cried,
Each time i pretended to be someone else,
I did all those dance and drama in front of you,
How could i forget the day I locked myself inside bathroom and you calmed me down
How could i forget the day I confessed that I was in Love,
I have always shared my secrets with you,
I don't remember exactly when i stopped talking with you
One thing is sure Life comes with situations and i accept i was not able to deal with them the way i wanted to and ended up acting like a coward
Its you who made me realize
The only person standing between me and my desired life is ME

'Its not what happens to Us, but our RESPONSE to what happens to Us'

Home ALONE :) :)

 6th day of 2013 is almost here
 And past 5days were spend wishing every single person Happy 2013, making resolution, setting goals
Hmmmm so now its time to actually get on with Life
SIGH SIGH
In the mean time M had to go out of town for a conference,
I had to stay back, this is probably first time (post marriage) that I'm all alone
I reminiscence those days when i would look forward to occasions like this,  i mean it was like a golden opportunity to be alone at Home.
My Mother being a Home-Maker has always been watchful,  Me and my sister were rarely left alone

I remember doing all the crazy things,
wearing my mother's sarees
dancing to all raunchy item numbers/songs doing all those obscene movements
ahem ahem you know what i'm talking about right
barge into the refrigerator to have all those ice-cream and chocolates
spending hours and hours in front of mirror-Really
call all the friends over and have night-long girl talks.

Now a days my favorite to-do thing is to  have all kinda stuff like a remote, phone, eatables,
books, water, coffee-cup in a reachable distance so you just don't have to get up what-so-ever
I have not even bothered to open the drapes heeeeeee

Well i did a little crazy-dance yesterday for a moment i felt as if i was too old for it...
but then i realized you are never too old to do a little crazy-dance, especially when you are all alone it brings out that insanity in you... :P


I'll resume to my normal sane routine Tomorrow
till then Happy Craziness to Me!!!!!!

AVERAGE....

For some average is the state of mind

For some it is the way of life

For me it is a shackle

Shackle hard enough to break-free from

Excellence is a mirage

Is what i've always thought

Success above certain level is unattainable

Is what i’ve always believed

Average is the life I have always lived

Dependency leads to delusion

Comfort makes you indolent

Settling down for good over great

is nowhere close to an achievement

I have knowingly ignored all these facts

Average is the life I have always lived

With an impending New Year

My Resolution is... 

To put an end to my Doubtfulness...

To put an end to an Average Life....

To break the shackles of Mediocrity...

Wishing All my dear Friends A Very Happy and Bright 2013!!!!!

I_Me_Marraige- Not Afraid to Love....

I_Me_Marraige-Still Afraid To Love...

Jan 2011

Still confused…          

My mind's very own territory -Confused-State-Of–Mind

Year 2011 has begun but in an unusual manner....

Suddenly, butterflies in stomach, being alone, listening to old romantic songs

Gazing at sky, long talks on phone, red roses, cute gifts, holding hands and every possible cheesy thing has started making sense to me....

But i’m still waiting for an affirmation from my mind and we decided to wait, to wait for one long year in order to test ourselves, test our love for each other…

Its been 6months now, Milind is not here but

I can still feel his presence….

I still wait for his call every morning…

I still have goose-bumps when his voice falls in my ears,

I still remember that evening how tears rolled down my cheeks when he was leaving….

I cant wait to see him again….

Sometimes a moment in your life makes you take life-time decisions, 

I now knew that this is my crucial moment that I'm not afraid to LOVE anymore.....

                                                 

                                                                                

Dec 2012

If life is a journey then I would say I’ve just embarked on mine,

days-months and a Year

Year of Togetherness,

Year of Happiness,

A Year full of Surprises,

A Year of Knowing and Understanding each other

A Year of few Arguments

A Year of few Alterations

I wish to spent such countless years with You…

Happy Anniversary to US!!!!!!

I_Me_Marriage -Still afraid to LOVE

I_Me_Marraige- Afraidd to Love...

Nov 2010-8 A.M

I am already late for office…i have to deliver a report today…i don’t know what Preeti(my manager) is going to say…

Suddenly my phone rings and as always i cannot find it..

Ohhh god what if its Preeti??? its not mummy for sure, she never calls me this time…

Ohhh here it is.. what?? not again… Mr America calling

I am on talking terms with this guy, he sure doesn’t sound like a Typical-Indian-Boy-Searching-For-Bride, He is much cooler...

funny thing is i haven’t even seen his picture yet…

Me:   Hello

Him: Hey hi, how are you

Me:   Ohhh I’m good

Him: I know you must be getting ready for office and I’m disturbing you but

         I’ve figured out an amazing fact about us

Me:  What fact??

Him: You know what, We share our birthdays, the moment i came to know i couldn't stop myself  from 

          calling you

Me:   Really????? What a Coincidence…

Same day 12 PM

 Is it for real??? This is strange, Is this some kinda Signal???

'Dil to pagal hai'- kinda signal

(now you know where do all this Bollywoodish thoughts come from.. duhhhh)

Dec 2010

I cant believe i’m sitting right in front of him, having 'so-called' dinner

There have been various awkward moments in my life but this one tops the list :D

I have so many question in my mind, should i ask him or should i wait for the food…arghhhhh..

Giving unfamiliar smiles is so stupid sometimes....

I better speak…

After a long session of a dumb-relevant-some-irrelevant questions

For the first time in my i was getting an answer

No matter how dumb or irrelevant my question was, i had an answer…

Part of me is still hesitant, what if this is an infatuation????

To be Continued....

I_ME_Marraige - Afraid to LOVE...

flash-back - August 2010

Hmmmm what a hectic day…but deep down i’m satisfied after all, this is what i’ve been yearning for-  

my identity, my independence, my work..

i know its going to be tough for a girl like me, i might feel homesick, i have never been away from mummy and purva(sister) my entire life..still somewhere i am excited and looking forward to my new life in city of my dreams MUMBAI...

Some strange sound woke me up, it took me a while to realize that i’m not in my old room,  that its 7-30 am and i got to rush, this has happened several times with me i often talk to my self and while doing so unknowingly fall asleep…

Well its going to be a big day today, my first ever meeting yuhuuuu..

       Days are passing by swiftly, i have been to my home town few days ago and i’ve already started missing home..

Home visits are directly proportional to a word called MARRIAGE, but this time it  was different more serious than ever

It feels like some new chapter has begun in my life, Chapter Of Marriage, i knew this would be coming but not so early....

I’m not sure not that i’ve never thought about it, but still this is not the right time i don’t want my career and marriage to collide

Like every other normal girl i've always had this rough idea of what kind of guy i would like to be with, but unlike every other normal girl my idea would change every week or day to say so, i might sound weird but from school to college to work i've met so many people some have impressed me, some were friendly, while some were desirous...

How on earth can one figure out given so many options.....
Unending Infatuations and Countless Crush!!!!!

Even if my 'Would-Be' crosses paths with me how am i going to know that he is the one

with thousands of questions on my mind i closed my eyes, in an anticipation of better tomorrow

To Be Continued.....

my HEART & MIND!!!!

I have known them since ages
I have shared my times with them
They are part of me
Still so obscure
Still so strange
My Heart & Mind are hard to comprehend

I am no stranger to them
but every-time i converse with them
they seem so atypical and mysterious
My Heat & Mind always surprise me

Every-time i try to find  answers
they both have their own suggestions
Suggestions which are exactly opposite
Solutions which are equally viable
To settle with one of them seems like an unending procedure
My Heart & Mind always leave me pondering


I have been listening so much about decision making
I have always been taught to be logical
I have always been suggested to be practical
I find it very difficult to be so
Although i'm not proposing to be unrealistic either
I dont know how to get there
I have never know....
Over the years i have realized
there are very few moments when heart and mind go along
never let go those moments
for my Heart & Mind seldom concurs!!!!